Friday, December 17, 2004
i shouldn't while away my time while you ache

ARGH!!! GRRRR!! PFFFT!!! *stomps around* GAAHHHHHH!!! *strangles bolster* ARRGGGHHHHH!!!

-after being sedated-

I hate knowing that someone I hold close to my heart is extremely infuriated & hurt.
I hate being unable to form anything close to comforting with my words.
I hate not being able to do anything to make her feel better.
I hate the feeling of knowing I cannot do anything to make the pain go away.
I hate feeling helpless. I hate feeling useless.

Its aggravating to realise one day that the advice you've been giving someone has just been disregarded. It hurts knowing there is nothing you can do but wait for the other to realise his/her fallacy.

Then again it isn't upon my shoulders to make the person feel all better.

And it isn't really up to me to decide what's wrong & right is it? It isn't for me to dictate either what the person should or shouldn't do because of what I think.

I care you see. I genuinely do. But if only that were enough.
you probably won't know it's you i'm talking about. it's ok.

--so i lie--